Today was a "good" hair day... not for me as far as my own hair... Heck, anyone who knows me knows that I only have good hair days about eight times a year. That is, the day the hair dresser does it and the day that follows my hair dresser doing my hair. I'm just not good at styling my hair, which is probably another "pro" to add to the bright side that we keep trying to look at in dealing with this whole thing. In all seriousness though, today was a good hair day because none of us got upset about Taylor and her Alopecia. Some days we wake up and it's all one of us or all of us can think about (please try to remember when you're judging that this has only been something that we have been processing for a month). Anyway, today we did not think about it. I talked about it with a family member and I read an article about it, but it didn't HURT today.
It did not even hit me that I had a great day with her and was not sad until we were in the grocery store. Taylor had been in the car most of the day because we had a ton of errands to run so when I was shopping I decided that we would try letting her walk next to the cart. Well, anyone with a 16 month old can probably relate to their child not wanting to walk NEXT to anything. She wanted to PUSH THE CART. At first I resisted, but finally I allowed it. I stood back and watched her pushing the cart and just started smiling. I thought to myself "what the hell does it matter that she is not going to have hair... she is beautiful, she is self-sufficient (for her age), she is confident and independent." It just really struck me that I need to embrace this and look at all the amazing things she does every day without hair being a factor.
Today, she pushed a cart full of groceries. She BUCKLED HERSELF into the cart. She learned how to get her toy frogs to flip (see video below). She even learned something not so great... Her newest thing is to walk away and say "Gaaa" while audibly SIGHING (which is a direct copy of her sister being mad and walking away saying "God" when she doesn't like what she has been told). While I am not exactly PROUD of this last one because I do not support using the Lords name in vain, my point in sharing it is that she is learning so many things each day and I AM PROUD of her development. We were given such a blessing and the things that she does are not impacted by her hair. Regardless of the stress that our family has endured lately, Taylor is growing into a great little girl. She is becoming her own person and as a parent, I could not ask for anything more. Part of her growth and development is going to be focused on Alopecia, there is no doubt about it, but I am becoming more certain with each passing day that she has the perfect personality to handle the curve ball that has been thrown our way. Despite the evening bath that revealed even more hair loss (as has been the recurring theme for the past two weeks or so), I can say spending time with my little girl, watching these new triumphs and hearing the evil giggle that resulted when she realized she learned something new, made it a GOOD HAIR DAY.
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